A rethink

Sometimes we may stand still before a question, For what?? Does it make any change even if we compensate much for the sake of mind, to stand for some one made you  happy in inner minds, either they may know you better or not, keeping a distance in your vicinity, ie not leaving aside you completely, keeping mum when we expect the odd answers we may expect to hear. Don't know Why couldn't I, but upto an extend I can now stand keeping my feelings underneath. Best part of me is over long ago, any how  leaving a space out Me. Yet sometimes I feel to strip your mind naked, to find any left over feelings is there inside you that you didn't wish to express for not loosing what you got. Any how I have to live on keeping a wound scar deep beneath my inner minds unhealed. Feeling utmost pain in lonely moments by the suppressed memories. What we intent to do is to keep it in a distance by engaged in something you are not interested in but no option than accepting it. Keeping a faint smile in your eyes is much more than being overdosed by sedatives, in a world we are not actually fit into. Really its hard to keep, but I think it is the time. To broke the promise to myself and to the world, to have what I am for. To rethink the situations I just walked over.